04-13-2011, 12:18 PM
I am very respectful of alcohol. Very respectful. I had a friend growing up who drank to the point of being absolutely out of control - every time. He got into car crashes more than a couple of times, and other consequences. It truly astounds me that he lived through all of that and went on to get married and have kids, etc. He did NOT care what happened to him at the time. I also had a family member who dealt with depression by drinking, and that relationship has effected my relationship with alcohol so completely that I am prone to end up in tears feeling woefully unhappy if I drink too much. I can go out and have a couple of beers and enjoy that. But I cannot do more than that. Yes, I have been drinking a little in the evenings over the past few weeks. But it is purely to help myself settle down and stop feeling so damed anxious and nervous all the time. Time and healing will hopefully take over soon.