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[Bageleth]

Perhaps sorting those things out also helped you sort out those feelings?

[NWoBHM]

(07-21-2012 03:08 PM)Bageleth Wrote:  Perhaps sorting those things out also helped you sort out those feelings?

I think it did Bagel - that and Prozac. Walking a lot, a bit of therapy, and ultimately "giving up" on trying to make a difference - learning what will be is what will be - I couldn`t change it, no matter how much I tried (and boy did I try)........Thinking "those things" awful as they are looking back - does give you the feeling that you have some power over your life though.........and that, some sunny days in the Autumn of 2001, was enough.

I wonder, actually whether 9/11 finally kicked started the process of realising things were wrong, (not family or love I hasten to add) but work, and seeing that awful devastation of those people who were caught in that rat race, and maybe they wanted to change things, (I think from some of the phone messages they may have wanted to), but it was too late.....and when those towers came crashing down, so did I.

As the therapist said, "no one gets to Heaven and says they wish they spent more time at work"

I heard an excellent speech by the Headmaster of me eldest daughters school, at Worcester Cathedral, and he mentioned something about some Paliative Care person (maybe in Oz) who had noted the last words from those passing on, and he recalled that most said, (and I cant remember it all - but must look it up) - but people said -

They wished they had lived their lives a little more for them and not others, (it sounds selfish but I can see that), and done the things they wanted to do.

Here is me - I love music, always have, and yet I work away in an alien environment to make money but for what? I know it all goes to my family and that is good and right, but why didn`t I go to a college and study music, and maybe work teaching music or something?

Anyway - I dont wish to bring anyone down with my melancholly - it was some time ago.......

[Gungawoman]

That is me, too, NWo. Why didn't I pursue my music to the utmost? But I was an immature fool in college. Now, at least I can indulge my music to a point.....but always wondered about my dream to replace Bill Kraft in the LA Philharmonic. I continue to look forward, though. Can't change the past.

[NWoBHM]

Quote:I continue to look forward, though. Can't change the past.

True GW. I actually thought about signing on and doing a distant learning Batchellor of Music B.Mus........especially if I could slant it towards drumming, that would be good..........3 years I would be 53 - 54, and try again.

Or indeed, getting myself signed up for a Residential Training course on Protools (I have done a 2 day course, but I only figured out where the on-off switch was) - and then I could record bands / drummers and vicariously be part of the scene.

Actually, I think this was the thought process I went through in 2001.

I used to walk to the highest hill around here and give the "Bloke upstairs" a "right b*llicking", for not helping those that help themselves....(I had played pretty much non -stop by then for 25 years, and recorded I dont know how much stuff).

I remember walking down the hill and noticed someone had left a discarded cassette tape, with its tape hanging out, and somebody had tried to set it alight........and I thought "that is my music career"......

I don`t think it was that day, but maybe the day after, a guy from California got in touch via email, and the day after a guy from from Holland, wanting to buy any stock we had left of "Suicide" (how ironic is that) - and I earned enough to buy myself a ddrum, give a load to Mrs NWo, and get re-focussed.

How odd is that though?? I mean literally 18 years after making the bl**dy record two people were interested in it, and days after I had finally melted down and gone up a hill to rant at God for being a meanspirited individual.........

[LiveToCook]

(07-22-2012 03:10 AM)NWoBHM Wrote:  

Quote:I continue to look forward, though. Can't change the past.

As a life philosophie, some years ago, I adapted, ''The Old Planet keeps spinning and we have to keep spinning with it'' I guess that we all live our ups and downs... I pretty much agree with you on ''I should have done this and that back then'', we all do that and the idea of changing the pass is always within our thoughts, but.... the only answer to this, again, you are right in saying ''I should do it now''. I guess that it is never too late.

Life IS ''funny'' sometimes.

[Gungawoman]

(07-22-2012 08:02 AM)LiveToCook Wrote:  

(07-22-2012 03:10 AM)NWoBHM Wrote:  

Quote:I continue to look forward, though. Can't change the past.

As a life philosophie, some years ago, I adapted, ''The Old Planet keeps spinning and we have to keep spinning with it'' I guess that we all live our ups and downs... I pretty much agree with you on ''I should have done this and that back then'', we all do that and the idea of changing the pass is always within our thoughts, but.... the only answer to this, again, you are right in saying ''I should do it now''. I guess that it is never too late.

Life IS ''funny'' sometimes.

Ain't that the truth!

[nettiesaur]

(07-22-2012 04:25 PM)Gungawoman Wrote:  

(07-22-2012 08:02 AM)LiveToCook Wrote:  

(07-22-2012 03:10 AM)NWoBHM Wrote:  

Quote:I continue to look forward, though. Can't change the past.

As a life philosophie, some years ago, I adapted, ''The Old Planet keeps spinning and we have to keep spinning with it'' I guess that we all live our ups and downs... I pretty much agree with you on ''I should have done this and that back then'', we all do that and the idea of changing the pass is always within our thoughts, but.... the only answer to this, again, you are right in saying ''I should do it now''. I guess that it is never too late.

Life IS ''funny'' sometimes.

Ain't that the truth!

and I like the last line of the CPT song Wish them well as a philosophy:
"Even though you're going through he-- just keep on going!"
seems the thing to do these days, until you can catch your breath!

[Scythe Matters]

Regrets... ugh. I hate to think about them but who can help it? Still, dwelling on the past is like trying to eat food gone bad - it will make you sick if you keep it up.

As for the gun rampages...well... even thought I own one (living in our rural area we do need the protection) I would be happy with more regulations. I mean, how messed up is it that you go on a DEA watchlist if you try to buy an extra pack of Sudafed but if you buy 6000 rounds of ammo online, you are ignored? No, I don't want to get into it but there is a real problem in this country when every politician is so cowed by a special interest group that they refuse to even talk about a subject.

[NWoBHM]

I was thinking of something amazing I read a while back, about some people who had found fossilised foot prints in what would have been sand once. The footprints were millions of years old, and was of a Mother and daughter (well they assume that, or could be older woman and younger girl), and as they had walked across the sand together something had caught their attention, and they both paused, looked to the left, looked, listened, and then carried on...........

[Mufasa]

South Africa, Tim.


This it?
http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnew...Kenya.html